-Jonathan Larson 

NOTE: This entry was created on 3/17/01 from a letter written to Dave.
Response 2021.06.28
My break has been pretty boring so far. It still has a little bit of time to pick up though.
I realize now I should have done something more adventurous than working at the library. Oh, well.
I plan on making up for it by trying to work at one of the state parks during the summer (I've never been off this coast, I need to travel).
So, Kate is currently in London, watching as many plays as she can for free and getting three credits. This is one of the reasons I wish I had realized I wanted to travel sooner. Not so much because Kate is there (though that certainly helps) but that she is having a potentially amazing experience.
I am very green with envy and blue with longing. Kind of an aqua, overall.
I told Katie about a month ago that I had found someone who could make me happy (after the break up, she told me she wanted me to find someone who mad me very happy). She guessed a recent acquaintance of mine and I quietly informed her that, no, it was Kate. She made me happy. And I had no interest in dating anyone else, because I had tried it and realized how empty I find dating. She hugged me and cried. It was a very tearful situation. I said something like that I knew what my truth was and I was sorry that her truth was not the same as mine, but I understood.
After this, she became very warm and friendly to me. We were having great conversations about everything and seemed very fond of one another. I was getting hopeful.
Right now, I am trying to deal with all of this. I set my watch to Greenwich Mean Time. It seemed like an appropriate gesture, since part of me is with her. Whenever I look down at my watch, I envision what she is doing.
In an affectionate way, not an obsessive way. At least, I don't think it is obsessive, as I don't stare at it, just glance at it as I would normally and remember that she is living in a day six hours ahead of me. IN THE LAND WHERE TIME BEGINS!